Daily News reports:
Two years after she was revealed to be a white woman pretending to be black, Rachel Dolezal is unable to find work and lives off food stamps — but she still believes she did nothing wrong.
“I’m not going to stoop and apologize and grovel and feel bad about it,” she told the Guardian. “I would just be going back to when I was little, and had to be what everybody else told me I should be — to make them happy.”
The former NAACP leader, who stepped down from the position in Spokane, Washington, amid scandal, was outed in June 2015 when her parents, Larry and Ruthanne, revealed she was not actually black.
The story made international headlines and Dolezal eventually admitted she was “biologically born white to white parents” and compared herself to Caitlyn Jenner, claiming race is “not coded in your DNA.”
The 39-year-old also lost her job as an adjunct instructor at Eastern Washington university because of the ordeal, and she hasn’t been able to get work since.
The former professor and columnist told the Guardian she’s applied for more than 100 jobs, but not a single place will hire her. The only offers that have come her way have been for reality television and porn.
Dolezal now relies on food stamps to feed her family and has been receiving help from a friend to cover her — next month she expects to be homeless, the Guardian reported.
She added her memoir titled “In Full Color,” due out in March, was turned down by 30 publishing houses before anyone would be willing to print it.“Right now the only place I feel understood and completely accepted is with my kids and my sister,” she told the news outlet. “The narrative was that I’d offended both communities in an unforgivable way, so anybody who gave me a dime would be contributing to wrong and oppression and bad things. To a liar and fraud and a con.”
Dolezal said she wrote her book not only to tell her side of the story, “but to also open up this dialogue about race and identity, and to just encourage people to be exactly who they are.”
When questioned about her race, Dolezal would just tell people that she was mixed, but she doesn’t feel as though she was lying.
“The times I tried to explain more, I wasn’t understood more. Nobody wanted to hear, ‘I’m pan-African, pro-black, bisexual, an artist, mother and educator,’” she told the Guardian. “People would just be like, ‘Huh? What? What are you talking about?’“So I felt like by not talking about my biological ancestry, I gave people the opportunity to relate to me as an individual, not part of a group.”
She also noted that she’d never consider going back to being white.
“No. This is still home to me,” Dolezal said. “I didn’t feel like I’m ever going to be hurt so much that I somehow leave who I am, because I’m me. It really is who I am. It’s not a choice.”